Date: January 25th, 2025
Location: BALTIMORE, MARYLAND, USA
A new place. Not searched for and selected, simply accepted.
An opportunity offered. All wrapped up in the essence of life;
Joy, grief, love, peace, noise, cold, warmth, family.
What I want, is to be and feel free. Free to make, explore, see what there is to see.
These questions of "what's next? What is coming to me?" sometimes drop me into an existential hole. It can feel heavy, dark, cold. Like an empty well, it's walls slick and cold. Instead, I'd rather be in a warm home, hearth aglow. Even when I'm unsure what's next, feeling warmth, trust, and peace.
I get to choose. So, I choose that warm hearth to live in my heart. Taking one thing at a time. Taking care to pay attention to reality around and within. Meditation is the first doorway in. Play and learning remain close, intimate friends.
I choose openness to new habit and routine. Many times my habits have changed, and many more still, they will again. Fear not stagnation, focus on the expression of soul and self. Remember the way of being you welcome in. The flow that was in Hawai'i, Taos, England, California. Allow in the magic, the grin. Say "No, but thank you" to heavy, cold, uncertain. Say "No" to certain discomfort, and "yes, please!" to the uncertain. Accept guidance. Learn from mistakes and successes.
Focus on the things that make you proud. Ground and renew with practices and ritual. Connect to space, time, and community.
Trust, then Be.
